| And about 4 years later she wrote again |
[Apr. 4th, 2011|08:53 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | in bed | ] |
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| |  gloomy | ] |
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| | Emily Haines and the soft skelton.. reading in bed. | ] |
WOW!! Where to start... there is just no way to update everything....but i will say this... Michael dumped me out of the blue about 2 and half years ago... pat carr.. is now divorced.. my mom is 5 years cancer free.. im fatter than ever.. still hating it.. keeley is in Tennessee with her husband and 3 year old gorgeous son. I am again single.. living yes.. back with parents... we are in bradford now.. im jobless...still chasing colin and pat carr... yes i am even on a new diet.. i never smoke pot anymore... but drink too much.. trying to quit that also... the thing about life is that it really doesnt changes.. your heart never really changes.. people and time just change. the proof is here.. i STILL like people i did 7 years ago.... i am still a single chubby lady... just a lot more notches in my bedpost and an ex love of my life to boot. maybe when i get married ill write again.. or maybe ill start this again.. the worlds addicted to facebook sooo i doubt this will get read anyways.. oh well its fun to see how much i havent changed.. and how i was never 5'4 and now im just heavier! hahahaah wtf! |
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[Jul. 16th, 2007|12:14 am] |
its been almost a year since ive written. Looking back at my previous entrys ive realized how much ive changed and grown up. sometimes you forget what has happend and how life was because life really does pass you by. the main topic of my live journal was always about love or my weight. well after a huge mess with a boy named colin things really started to change for me. i went through the whole partying scene had lots of fun with that. made a new best friend tiffany and really learned to love myself. i got a full time job working at borders. and now i am head over heels in love with a wonderful boy named michael. I can't believe how happy i am and i never thought i could be. everything is great and normal. turns out everyone was right you really need to find and love yourself before anyone else can. im not smoking anymore pot anyways i dont talk to colin and all those old boys who i thought i would like forever dont even matter anymore. its so nice to be in love with someone who loves me back. i really feel like he was sent to me from above. i think we will be together forever. hes so amazing. i love myself too. everyone is great. life is great. im so glad im me and that i finally realized what an awesome person i am. |
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[Jul. 19th, 2006|03:11 am] |
nothing has changed really
i love him more than i could have ever forcasted..shit
I saw that day,
Lost my mind
Lord, I'm fine
Maybe in time
You'll want to me mine |
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[Mar. 10th, 2006|06:12 am] |
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| | uncomfortable | ] |
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| | JAMES BLUNT MOOD | ] |
There must be an angel, with a smile on her face,
when she thought up that I should be with you
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.
im so addicted to him.. its like totally gone to far.. i dont know how to go back.. i cant picture my life without him.. but it hurts to keep hearing about her... it HURTS SO BAD... he really REALLY loves her.. and he doesnt think of me in that way i dont even think hes knows how i feel or how STRONG i feel right now... I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.. in everyway possible... its sad and sickning. sorry for the girly bitching... |
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| yo yo |
[Jan. 30th, 2006|07:53 pm] |
Ive been doing drugs of all kinds... ive been smoking ciggaretts...ive been drinking... ive been partying... ive been sexing... to all of those people who feel that they have to not do this stuff because it may create a problem in there life im sorry.. you're not having any fun.. im having a kick ass time!! life is good! and yes i am still getting an education and working hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah
sorry
im high |
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[Nov. 26th, 2005|01:11 am] |
i wish our conversations about sex could be funner |
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[Nov. 12th, 2005|10:44 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | Very Sober | ] |
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| | colorblind counting crows | ] |
hes gone for three days and two nights... now is time to see where the real addticion lies.. in the THC or in him... hes the closest thing ive had to a boyfriend and he has a beautiful girlfriend.. my fault i guess for getting so far in.. but what do i do now... this sucks i really screwed myself over this time. at least my moms okay this year. oh yeah Gabe has a girlfriend.. who would have thought that would hurt.. who doesnt have a girlfriend.. maybe i should get one too |
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| HER |
[Nov. 7th, 2005|01:42 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | awake | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | River.. joni M | ] |
She is beautiful.. she is funny... she is smart... she has direction... she fills my heart with joy... i miss her so much.....
There are places I remember
All my life, though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places had their moments
With lovers and friends
I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I've loved them all
But of all these friends and lovers
there is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
In my life I love you more |
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| life is good |
[Oct. 29th, 2005|04:36 am] |
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| |  amused | ] |
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| | march of the pigs | ] |
What have I become
My sweetest friend?
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way. |
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[Oct. 10th, 2005|12:37 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  cold | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | tool- sober | ] |
I really need help. Im so fucked up. i have no clue what to do. |
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